Here we go again....

Good Evening folks!

I was Supposed to go to work to today but...what had happened was....

Yeah last night Royally SUCKED!! I got in bed at a decent enough hour but I couldn't fall asleep for th life of me. -___- I Was kinda waiting for a phone call too...(we'll touch on that Later..maybe...lol) but even after that happened I was struggling! Having all sorts of hot flashes (my Hair was damp y'all), chills and what not. I don't know what all that was about...but needless to say, I didn't get much sleep. UGH LIFE!!! I like sleeping you guys! And I count the hours before I go to sleep if I have something to do in the morning and I was down to like 4 hours on the clock and I wanted to literally Cry. Sigh. I took 3 herbal something or others and...Nada. But alas, there is work tomorrow and 0530 will come before I know it. :(

I promise I'll come back with something of substance later. :)

You LOSE!!

I was just having a late night convo a friend about things we need to reconcile and attitude that need to be changed...etc and I thought to myself..."Tiffany, you're really not feeling any sort of way about Your situation and haven't for a sec so you must be aight." FALSE. The bull that I have [at times willingly] endured always finds that good and random time to pop  up and put you in your place! Memories come outta nowhere...one daydream turns into a nightmare that you actually lived through.... And THEN if that's not enough your mind takes it further to involve rather alarming events that haven't even happened.

What. The. Deuce.

I cannot deal!!! I got in bed all before ten and stuff tryna get that Good Sleep since I gotta wake up super early for work in the morning and clearly I failed.

So my question is, "What do you do when you're the only person struggling?" I don't really have anything that's been left unsaid and I don't treat the people that've done me wrong badly. I don't even feel any of these emotions in these person's welcomed presence! Which...may be a problem. I think I may be a little too ready to let certain people back in my life. *looks around* Am I having a mini epiphany??!!! *clouds open and angels sing* Eh. Please tell me why Bruno Mars' 'Grenade' was playing in the background in my head during all of it!! lol (CRAZY)

I dunno folks. The only thing I feel like I can do at this point is pray for peace and a spirit of forgiveness; probably for myself than anyone else. Forgiving yourself is a Hard Pill to swallow. Cause at least with other people you can ignore them. You're stuck with You!!

I Cannot be the only person that feels this way.

I'll fill you in on the title of this blog. Its from one of my favorite Arthur Episodes...
"Please don't say 'I win'. Ok..."You LOSE!!" (3:45-3:54)-<----Kills me every time. LOL

Night Folks.

*stares at phone* Sigh. 

Can I touch your hair?

HAPPY MLK DAY!! 

After a long and tired day shopping with the moms (like 10 minutes has elapsed here. lol. I'm beat y'all) and coming out with NOTHING, I'm so ready for  bed and its only 9 something! As we were leaving the always vacant mall I decided to stop for some pretzels. I used to get them every time I go to the mall...but I've been slacking Hardcore. Hmm...maybe because I actually hate going to malls. The sound of "Aye girl!! Aye!! You with the big hair!! What you name is??!!" is not that appealing. But I digress. 

                                          (Think THIS but bigger with accessories :P )  

The Asian lady at the counter said she liked my hair! And after much ranting and raving (without me making my order, mind you). She beckoned me forward across the counter to Touch It!! Maybe that happens to You all the time but...I don't recall a complete stranger wanting to cop a feel! And she touched it so quickly like she wasn't trying to confirm it was real or something. LOL. (another 10 minutes have passes. I'm Failing) Then  she proceeded to touch my feather hair clip and raved about that. Smh. I really don't know what to take out of this experience.

#sidenote Every body thought I was in high school!! I'm a college graduate dang it!! 

That pretzel was Bomb though.

My Twitter and Me

Anybody remember that show 'My Brother and Me'? No? Anyway that was sooooo random. I apologize.


Here's a snippet of a day in the life of tweetdeck:

Who can I talk to....*xscape voice* UGH. You suck So much and I think you're pleased that we're both aware of this fact. -__-

<--Smiling on the outside but on the inside I just want 2 punch U in the throat until U C my point of view. How many hits does it take...

[That arrow was pointing my my lovely face btw.  I'm a lowkey Fool. Sorry. *hangs head*]
* OBNOXIOUSLY LOUD SIGH* You know those people that get on your Last Nerve in every imaginable sense of the word but somehow you still tolerate their existence?! I have one of those. And Somehow these same people have some kind of spidey sense that detects this Flaw in your character and capitalizes on it??!! What the Deuce??!! And what am I supposed to do about it!! I mean you can get upset, scream, cry, yell, whatever and you just end up in the same place; and they have the upper hand. At least it seems that way. #Shrug I dunno. Then you hear or see this saying talm bout "if someone can make you upset they have power over you."  Chile PLEASE. *eye roll* But I Do know after the year I had in 2010??! There are limits dang it!! I will Never willingly place myself in the position to experience certain emotions ever again.
Hmph. I need some Jesus. Lemme go be productive on this Sabbath night cause Lord knows (CLEARLY) that I don't know what to do. SMH.
That is all.

Back Story

*note to self* I think I may start off all my sentences with 'So...'. I need to get that together.


Alright! I just wanted to explain a little bit about why I chose 'Back to Black' as my blog title. I was listening to one of my  playlists on Rhapsody (don't judge me) and Amy Winehouse's song Back to Black. If you've never heard the song before...Shame. I will post a link to the vid. 

Its all about love, betrayal..etc, etc Which unfortunately I can More than relate to. Aaaaannnnd kept replaying it <---Warning!! This will only lead to further depression!!! Avoid at all costs!! *insert terrified screams here*


AFTER I stepped out of my mini funk of a mood I realized that it could be used to reference something more positive. (Yay me right??) Natural Hair!! More specifically, non chemically straightened hair. [We are not going down the road of colored or straightened hair isn't natural debate. I get upset just thinking about that Bufoonery. We'll save that for another day. :) ] But let's get back to our roots, our hair, our history, all that jazz. Who's with me?!!




ANYWAY...


Bye.

UGH.

*see post title*

GUYS. I've been stuck in the freakin house!! I Actually Wanted to go to work this week but I'm SO not about sliding into someone's house... much less into another car on 78 or 285 OR 20. No Bueno. So somebody's just gonna have to just Take It. #shrug I do love my job though and i am very grateful for it!! (insert happy ramblings here). 

Anyway, seeing that I've been in the house all day natural hair blogs (BGLH and curlynikki to be exact) and youtube have been taking over MY LIFE!! And I've been toying more and more with the idea of locing my hair. *GASP* Yeah. Now, my brother's hair is loc'd and is amazing and I maintain his hair from time to time so I'm not worried about that. A lot of my (guy) friends' hair is also loc'd. They've been Riding me to loc my hair and have been for almost a year! Don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE how they look!! [Shout out to The Bronze Goddess you're awesome and amazing!] And here lies the dilemma-----> I don't know if I really just want Length or if I can really commit to dreads. I'm Known for changing my hair often. lol. I have no shame in saying that I want to grow out my hair though. And I think I might feel like a cop out for not growing my *loose* natural hair long. But Folks, I'm getting more than annoyed. And I'm wanting my hair straight more! THE HORROR! So... #shrug I dunno. But something needs to happen before I do something entirely to drastic! The idea of getting extensions actually crossed my mind and I despise those things!! Sigh.

Help a sister out!!

*waves*

Random thoughts

So I just read this quote via twitter (which I'm sure you've seen Multiple Times). "Sorry, I'm allergic to Bullshit." [insert female empowerment twitter account here]. Umm...Yeah this is all fine and dandy when you're Out of the BS but I know for Me? *points to self* While I may be allergic to BS, I have knowingly consented to partaking of it! You only know you're allergic after you take it. Just Saying... :) I just got a text from a number I deleted and I knew Instantly who it was. -___- Yeah...I kinda memorized the area code before I deleted it for moments like THIS. Too much? Yeah I know. lol. But it was a self-preservation tactic. I Cannot go into 2011 sending texts to niggas half-way expecting a reply and my feelings being all hurt! No Bueno. So I removed the temptation. Take that!! *pats self on the back* 


P.S It Snowed last night in ATL! Its crazy up here!! Yeah, I'll be in the house all day (like that's out the norm *eye roll*) twisting my hair. :)

Stay well!

Welcome

Holas. *waves* I'm not looking for a following or Anything of the sort but I figured this blog would be a 'not-so-shabby' way of expressing my joys and frustrations. :) I'm a lover of music, natural hair enthusiast, soon to be licensed RN (woot woot), that is...... currently frustrated with all the previously mentioned items. Fun huh? :) 

Welcome to my life!