You LOSE!!

I was just having a late night convo a friend about things we need to reconcile and attitude that need to be changed...etc and I thought to myself..."Tiffany, you're really not feeling any sort of way about Your situation and haven't for a sec so you must be aight." FALSE. The bull that I have [at times willingly] endured always finds that good and random time to pop  up and put you in your place! Memories come outta nowhere...one daydream turns into a nightmare that you actually lived through.... And THEN if that's not enough your mind takes it further to involve rather alarming events that haven't even happened.

What. The. Deuce.

I cannot deal!!! I got in bed all before ten and stuff tryna get that Good Sleep since I gotta wake up super early for work in the morning and clearly I failed.

So my question is, "What do you do when you're the only person struggling?" I don't really have anything that's been left unsaid and I don't treat the people that've done me wrong badly. I don't even feel any of these emotions in these person's welcomed presence! Which...may be a problem. I think I may be a little too ready to let certain people back in my life. *looks around* Am I having a mini epiphany??!!! *clouds open and angels sing* Eh. Please tell me why Bruno Mars' 'Grenade' was playing in the background in my head during all of it!! lol (CRAZY)

I dunno folks. The only thing I feel like I can do at this point is pray for peace and a spirit of forgiveness; probably for myself than anyone else. Forgiving yourself is a Hard Pill to swallow. Cause at least with other people you can ignore them. You're stuck with You!!

I Cannot be the only person that feels this way.

I'll fill you in on the title of this blog. Its from one of my favorite Arthur Episodes...
"Please don't say 'I win'. Ok..."You LOSE!!" (3:45-3:54)-<----Kills me every time. LOL

Night Folks.

*stares at phone* Sigh.