Time to Grow Up.

I've been thinking over the course of a couple days about my mindset as a child growing up compared to now. At some point you're supposed to grow up right? Well...Something should probably be gradually be changing in conjunction with life experiences. Now, I'm not gonna be SUPER deep but here we go. :) I was very self conscious as a child. And that was moreso related to Hair than anything else. If you read one of my previous posts, I had a decent amount of hair as a youth. I LOVED wearing my hair down. I didn't understand the correlation my mom was trying to make for me Not wearing it down everyday. In my mind, long, [not so] flowy, pretty, Straight hair was...my pretty.


Sidenote: My mother and I knew Nothing of wrapping hair when I had a perm so that prolly wouldn't have worked out Anyway LOL! 


Somewhere in between waking up one morning with hair that wasn't quite as long as it was, and chalking it up to great height gain via puberty (SMH), INSTEAD of unhealthy hair practices...wait I'm getting off track. That's a Whole other topic. The misconceptions that we as blacks have with our hair is Serious y'all. ANYWAY. I remember many a day whipping my hair out as a youngster to get a crush's attention. Which...Who knows if that worked...LOL. But there was always association with long hair and beauty. And not suggestions association. We had actual girl talk about this. Like it was normal. Short hair = not as pretty. Now the light-skinned thing wasn't so much. Not for Me anyway. I never wanted to be lighter. I never thought lighter=prettier. Which I think a lot of darker girls take to the other extreme and start to Bash our lighter brethren. Calm down folks. lol. Chillax. But I Do Vividly remember being told by a family member a suggested comment that if I was a few shades lighter that would Increase my pretty factor. -__-

So where am I going with this? I'm working on it. lol. So today at church I got plenty o'compliments on my 'look' today. And these are from grown adults. I'm an adult but...yeah. I don't have kids, live by myself, solely support myself, etc. etc. So I'm thinking to myself...hmmm....I've been getting this a lot lately. Not I've never thought of myself as Ugly but I guess I've never gotten the attention the 'pretty girls' got in middle/high school. [Like what does That even mean? Guys are GUARANTEED morons at that age. *makes note to be Sure to inform future daughter of that info*] The only thing that I could think that's changed is me trying new things about my hair and not giving a Darn about who thinks about it. And Not be expecting compliments. That is something for me. True confidence really is attractive. I was Just looking at my 9th grade ID picture from high school and realized...I braided the front of my hair for that! It was all sorts of creative parting and such! But I Know I was uneasy about that! It really is true that a hairdo that You like will have you all sorts of feeling yourself! And there's nothing wrong with that. I'm the type of person to try to keep all limelight Off of me. I don't like Speaking about myself in a positive (or negative) way. I'd just rather talk about something else. So you Know those 'Name 5 good things about yourself' interview questions KILL ME. (Don't get me wrong, I come prepared. I'm not an idiot. lol).

But the point is. So things with your hair and appearance! You have to be with you all the time. You might as well enjoy it! Try something new! You might surprise yourself and inspire yourself!

This was LONG. Oh Well. You won't be getting this much out of me often. Trust.

I did the 'cinnabun' style for the First time!! *happy dances on your screen*

Happy Sabbath! :)

*waves*