Limbo.

I feel like I'm in limbo. I think that is mostly because I haven't been at work since last Wednesday lol. On my days off I've just been going back and forth browsing the internet for wedding ideas and watching HGTV. I was just editing some of my old posts and some of those things still ring very true for me. I still don't know the ending point in regards to effort. When enough is enough. When I Should do more. Some things have even turned for worse situation, for example, my exercising. I couldn't tell you the last time I actually exercised. Going up Stone Mountain was probably it! lol! Before that? Who. Knows. I did like the idea of going down the street to the classes buuuut the classes I wanted to take weren't offered on the days I was off work on a consistent enough basis for me to be committed. Unfortunately. And I paid for TWO unlimited month memberships. SMH. Shame.

The other portion of me feeling like I'm in 'limbo' is cause...MY MAN IS IN ANOTHER STATE. I realize this isn't something New. But planning a wedding and talking about post marriage things just makes it worse. I don't like texting for real. I don't like holding my phone. I don't always want to verbally respond to you. I get tired of talking Easily. Our schedules suck Anyway so either I'm up till the wee hours tryna get some talk time in, or he's trying to reach me in the middle of the day when I'm at work cleaning a patient or something...just doesn't work out all that great. We are 'making it work' though, in His words. October is the month of our wedding we decided on. It seems so far away on one hand, but especially doing this planning it seems like there isn't enough time! We're trying to figure out how to work out this pre-marital counseling while we're in different states, agree on colors, clothes, etc etc. Its just...O_O. Its funny because I've gotten varying reactions from out choice of date. Some people were all, 'Wow! Next Year?? That's less than a year! Good luck!'. Others were like, 'Why so long? You waiting on something to happen with him? Is he trying to figure out stuff? Y'all not ready?' Ummm....I just wanted a Fall wedding is all. We have a lot more intended guests than a typical American wedding. Because...our families aren't American. lol. Also, the Boo is a celebrity. LOL. No, but my list is longer than his. Just Family is 100 people for Me. You see where we're going with this? We need to hit up these vendors ASAP. I'll officially visit some places next month. Churches and venues are Booked for that month Already! Folks be trippin.

*looks at time* Umm...its late. I haven't gone to bed at a decent hour for at least a week. I'm gonna regret it when I go back to work. Welp! I have a meeting to go to tomorrow. I'll attempt to sleep before I get a phone call back from the boo.

OOHHH!!! I actually started reading from my certification book today! I've had it for months. *hangs head in shame* Pray church. I need some motivation! I want to take and pass this thing Before I get married. I know it can be done. I've seen it. I don't have a ton of experience but, again, I've seen it done. The info isn't going to stick via osmosis though. And knowledge solely from experience...ion got time for dat. I'm still in my twenties. I can't wait to I got grown kids in college [hating on the new nurses] to start these things. No.

Ok I love you, buh bye!!